Back... because I've had thoughts

I haven't really appreciated the value of the combination of things that this blog offer: publishing without readership. There are a lot of things that have gone unwritten or incomplete because I have thoughts, but I don't want to write them and leave them on my computer, and I don't want to write them for all my friends (an arguable term, I know) to read, because, just, no. But, at the same time, writing! What is more fulfilling, more organizing than writing, and writing about things that matter to me. Not a diary, not a research paper, but the things that struggle to make sense of the world around me, and fail, because I haven't written. And then when someone says something that answers those thoughts, and I scream inwardly at the excitement of it all, my brain struggles to remember, to make sense, because I had never been able to think them through, to figure them out by seeing them before me, rather than just having them bounce around inside my head.

So, I've decided. Writing. It's always been here, and now I'm using it. Because I can publish, and no one will read. But it matters that they're here. Organized., not dumped in folders, in my computer or brain, and not posted as a note that's definitely going to be pretentious because I know who will be reading. Here, I don't know who will be reading, or if anyone will. So here goes.